I'm going to bed.

Last night I was so tired, I started getting ready for bed at 10:00 and was in bed by 11:00.  That is truly amazing for me, because usually I get to bed between 2:00 and 4:00 am.  I went to bed without doing a blog post.

Tonight, I almost didn't do a blog post either.  It's just after midnight, and although for me it's early I'm going to bed early again.

My mother and I have been listening to another J.A. Jance book.  Maybe listening to her, makes us tired, my mother joked.  I don't know.  Maybe.

And maybe it's just that the act of listening, and colouring is more relaxing than watching youtube videos, writing blog posts, or reading websites.  It's strange.  Maybe the article I read a long time ago that said screen time should be limited to bedtime had a point?  I don't know.

I do know, that right now, I have a stomach ache, and I don't feel like sitting up doing anything.

And as strange as it is for me to go to bed so early, I'm going to be heading there very soon.  Going to sleep....  Well that's another matter.  Right now I'm reading a very good book, and if I get sucked into it, like I did 2 days ago, I might end up reading all night long again.  I actually hope not because tomorrow I have to take my mother to the doctor and I want to be able to be awake while I'm driving.

Raffi and Adult colouring Books.

I don't know what to write.  I don't know how honest to be?

I think I'm depressed.  I'm finding it very difficult to sleep, concentrate, think, or function.

I'm also finding it very difficult to write a post.  I've started several different posts, and just can't come up with something to say.  Maybe I shouldn't wait until bedtime to write posts?  Maybe if I had slept well in the last little while but that's not working very well either.

Last night because I was feeling sad and melancholy, I listened to Raffi, the Canadian's Children's singer.  I grew up listening to Raffi, and when I was nanny for my nephew I listened to Raffi with him.  I know the songs off by heart, and they have a way of making me smile.

So last night, I thought of listing to Raffi, even though I didn't have a child with me.  I tweeted about wounding if it was a little weird for an adult to listen to Raffi without a child alongside, and Raffi himself tweeted back saying "go ahead".  I did and it did make me smile.

Song's like "Mr. Sun", and "5 green and speckled frogs", still make me smile.

And I think I'll do that again tomorrow, while doing another children's activity: colouring.  Adult colouring books, are the "in" thing, and it relaxes.  I think tomorrow I'll try doing it while listening to children's music: Raffi.

Is that too weird?  But then again, even if it is, what difference does it make, if it makes me happier?

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Update:

After I wrote this, but before it was scheduled to post, I got a video of Raffi on youtube, and listened to it, while colouring an adult colouring book.  I sang with the songs, listened to the children laugh, and at times laughed along with them.  It cheered me up, and made me happier.  Now I'm going to go to bed, and I won't be so melancholy when I do.

Thanks Raffi.

Gerd - the sleep thief of the night.

I truly hope I get more sleep tonight than I did last night.

Last night I didn't get to sleep until 3:00 am, and then I woke up at 5:00 am, and stayed up.

The problem: Gerd.  That awful feeling in the back of my throat, that burns, makes me cough and prevents sleep.  It prevents going to sleep, and it wakes me up with a mouthful of yellowie-orangie gunk that burns my mouth and hurts my teeth.  When it suddenly wakes me up, I can't wait to spit it out.  I fumble for the light in almost a panic, as I try to get up find a kleenex to spit it into.

And that is why, I wondered through the day, almost asleep.

I truly hope it doesn't happen again tonight, and I can sleep peacefully.

I don't have bedbugs but I still can't sleep.

Tonight, I found a bug.  A big black, hairy bug, the size of an iPad....

No just kidding.  It was small, roundish and brownish black.  And I immediately thought "Bed Bug".

I spent the last hour learning about bedbugs, and concluded that it wasn't a bed bug because I only found one, despite looking for more, it doesn't look like the pictures of bedbugs I saw (no strips), and I found it in the middle of my bedspread on my made bed, and bedbugs like to hide, not sit out in the open.

But still....

I feel so creepy crawly.  I'm just so creeped out, wondering what it was.

I think it was just a one off bug, and no others.  My mother thinks it came from the dog, who likes to go out and roll in the leaves and grass outside.

  I hope so.  I really do, and if I had found it anywhere else, like the kitchen floor I might not be so creeped out.

  I feel like I need a bath, but it seems ridiculous to have a bath after midnight.